a sonata for you

GOD SAVE ME

2012-01-26T01:20:00.001+08:00

TOO MANY DAMN THINGS GOING ON IN 2 WEEKS

1) CAT PROJECT 25%
2) CAT ASSIGNMENT 10% due 27 jan
3) FINANCE QUIZ 10% 27 jan
4) MARKETING MINI-PROJECT 15% 6 feb
5) ETHICS ASSIGNMENT 1 31 jan
6) NEGO CASE OCEANA 28 jan

PLUS CONCERT NEXT FRIDAY 3 FEB.

I think my group members are going to hate me.

What a week one

2012-01-13T00:16:00.000+08:00

First week of school almost over and I'm dancing like everyday! Because of Patron's day, we have to perform for our President Dr Tony Tan. Furthermore we have so many rehearsals for STEPS2012. Already feeling the stretch of school.... Sigh.

Taking 5.5 mods. Dance. Exco. STEPS and Beyond. Leapfrogs project for Autism Awareness. GDIC in church.

All that plus boyfriend, friends and family on top...

I don't know how I'm gonna do it, God help me please! If I get through this semester alive, I will only have You to thank - for sending the right people, for sending the right circumstances, for giving the right opportunities, for teaching me the right things.

This semester shall be lived in faith and perseverance... to run this race as best I can.

Happy 2012

2012-01-01T03:39:00.000+08:00

Thank God for His faithfulness and mercies throughout 2011. He saw me through my worst sem and best sem; relationship ups and downs; committing to indancity 5th Exco; Australia trip and the cstd competition; friends made and lost; new freshies; family love... I have nothing but praise for my almighty father in heaven :) I don't feel worthy of such protection and favour. If anything, this is called love. Thank you Lord for loving me so much last year :) I hope this year will be an honor for you and that it will bring glory to Your name!

relationships

2011-12-28T01:21:00.001+08:00

we live and we learn.

no one can every be right about relationships... and i guess heartbreak is one of the ways we learn about life and people. (i'm not having heartbreak) and well... i guess the only comfort one can have is that God's will is for our good, and He will never harm us. Everything happens according to His time, and we can trust that our future is in His hands.

Take care <3

2011-12-24T02:30:00.000+08:00

i think inside of me there's a princess, emokid91, vain pot, mugger, lazy worm and a dust of psychotic mad woman all rolled into one. they've all got voices of their own!

the world IS amazing

2011-12-16T18:21:00.003+08:00

Watching TED Ideas Worth Spreading is really mind-blowing: algorithms that predict stock markets and genetic algorithm; embracing human vulnerability to fully experience emotions instead of numbing them. Our world is so mystifying - years and years of research by the brightest minds and we still haven't figured out human emotions, decisions, nature, math, physics, culture etc... the list will probably go on forever and will never end because we will never fully understand the complexity of life in itself.

So putting all this into a 20-year-old's perspective, I see it as

1) God's creation of the world is marvelous and we should enjoy this physical and educational(philosophical) environment that we're in. This is an age of discovery! I seriously can almost swear that I'm excited to discover my world :)

and 2) I somehow feel that if the world can be this amazing, I can also be as amazing. It's almost as though God has an intelligent purpose for me and I feel that I can achieve something extraordinary too - even if it means being the best housewife cum researcher cum musician. Joke. But the point is, humans are capable to do so much - much more that I imagined - and we are created in the image of Christ. Nothing is impossible! You know all these SMU students are brilliant but keep saying they're stupid, it is wrong to do that because each person is brilliant in their own way and the sky IS the limit.

Today was the release of results, and for the first time in my SMU life I achieve an A+... in fact, 2 of them. And I couldn't believe that this was possible a semester ago, but here it is. A+ for Financial Accounting and Management Science. And these are the 2 subjects I enjoyed the most :)

I got an A- for Management of People at Work despite a C+ for my group's presentation. Thank God I still managed to get an A-. And.... Thank God that because of my MPW and MS grades, I get to keep my double-degree :)

My next A- is for Finishing Touch. If only I did the career plan better, as all the other components were good. But I'm not complaining :)

What was the bummer - and reality check - is that I got a B for Macroeconomics. It's not even a B+, and it's the worst grade I've ever gotten ( thank God for that, too). Lesson learnt is that even if I do not like the professor and lessons are boring, I should not let it affect my grades. Not like this. There is no one else to blame except myself, and I humbly accept defeat for not working my butt off for midterms and finals...

Overall, GPA was pulled up, but still not a 3.7, but the closest I've ever been to it.

Next semester will be a better one, and I am going to get that 3.7.

it'll be us against the world

2011-12-13T01:13:00.000+08:00

I know that my God is a God of love, and not a God of fear. I shouldn't be afraid of anything... not even death.

Sad to say, I find myself running away from my fears most of the time. This earth is sometimes just so evil and so painful that it forms a gritty reminder of how imperfect life is.

There are so many things I don't want to happen - that's fear of those things actually happening. I won't be fine if these things happen... I know I won't be. :( so God, please, as far as Your will is concerned, I pray and beg You to please not let these things happen.....

Direction

2011-12-12T00:30:00.001+08:00

Direction.

Heading somewhere, with or without a destination, but on a clear course.

I realize that life doesn't have any particular destination. Perhaps what we do will have consequences that push us forward in life, but those are but "markers" along this path of life we trod on, perhaps even turning points.

We move forward (moving on sounds so sad, as though you can't bear to leave anything behind). Though I know my final destination will be in heaven, forever, eternally with God, but before that, what guides my path?

I think I've leant to ask not "what is my goal?" or you can call it lifetime goal/achievement/aspirations, but rather, "what is my direction?" which can be like which areas do i want to grow in? who do i care for around me? what role do i play (daughter, girlfriend, wife, mother, student, teacher, mentor, manager etc)? what are my values/moral conduct?

I guess meaning in life is knowing where you are heading to, not necessarily knowing where. HAHA sounds weird.

I can only say this because I've got optimism about life... and a surety knowing my life is in the hands of God who guides my path... without God giving direction, even with big goals I'll find life really confusing and I'll feel lost. I can safely believe that wherever I'm heading to is the right way :) it is the best source of comfort ever.

finance industry?

2011-10-28T02:55:00.000+08:00

bidding for next sem starts tomorrow. sigh.. got a whole line of work to do this week and next week :/

anyway, i really thank God that i'm in school, especially in SMU. it's really giving me so many opportunities, and sometimes i feel that i'm not utilizing them enough.

it seems only natural for me to go into the finance industry because of my degree(s). i'm just not sure about how the market works and stuff. iggy's right, i have to start reading the newspapers... but i feel that maybe the finance industry won't give me the satisfaction i'm looking for. maybe i should work in an MNC, or go into teaching. i feel a strong need for achievement and contribution to my workplace or to society... i want a job where i get projects that are challenging and exciting, not mundane. i don't want an easy peasy job as it'll get boring after a while.. but i have to get there, slowly, and start from below. hopefully i can get my foot into the door of some bank.... maybe serve tea there or feed the shredder paper. HAHA.

the GPA chase is heating up because exams are in a few weeks. I'm kinda worried for my grades, but i feel that this term could be better than the last 2 terms. my first sem in SMU has been the best so far out of the 3, including summer term.

i just don't want to let this term go to waste. i have to focus, focus, focus. God give me strength to get through this last stretch!

stuck in a rut.

2011-10-15T01:19:00.000+08:00

:( what else can i say? URGH they say you have to love yourself for who you are... but that's so cheating yourself. you know you have undesirable traits that you can never get rid of. if only it was a physical object that can be removed.

The battle is half won!

2011-10-13T01:30:00.000+08:00

With the second half of sem to go, I feel re-energized to do my best... It doesn't really come from the 'rest' I was supposed to have in the week break.... but it came from getting in touch with God again.

Last night I came across the verses in Proverbs 21:20-21:

³⁰ There is no wisdom, no insight, no plan
that can succeed against the LORD.

³¹ The horse is made ready for the day of battle,
but victory rests with the LORD.

I'm not a horse, duh, but I'm just going to do my best for the glory of God. And I know that God will bring victory upon Himself.

God is so merciful to me... Going through the darkness of not even willing to pray has just made clear to me that being close to God is so much better than being without Him. It may be tiring, troublesome and difficult for the lazy me, but in the end it's something I can't do without.

the first 5pm in a while

2011-09-26T02:23:00.000+08:00

Zaneta reminded me that God puts people in places for a reason.. God must have put me in dance such that I'm not able to go for 5pm service. Maybe I should be reaching out to the dancers more?

I feel most comfortable at 5pm service, and I'm grumbling that I can't worship, pray or meet God if I'm not in my favourite service (or at least I make excuses). But my point of view has changed considering those in the mission field who are in other countries, facing difficulties in even communicating in a common language. they are not in a comfy service with all those facilities, among their favourite people... no. they are out there making disciples of the nations.

I'm ashamed that I'm unwilling to move out of my comfort zone. From now, I'll do my best wherever God places me.

sunday morning

2011-09-04T23:36:00.000+08:00

this sunday morning was special because i woke up in time for 8.30am Upper Room service. i miss going to church, and i couldn't take it that i missed church twice last month :( that's 50% attendance :( very embarrassed that i'm not participating in church as much as i hope.

so stepping into upper room had this familiar feeling.. that i'm going to spend the next 1.5hours totally not thinking about what's happening outside of these 4 walls. no thinking of homework, no thinking of dance, andy, studying, planning my schedule... i felt like i was home.

He's my comfort, my refuge and tower of strength. He's my Saviour, only Redeemer, Prince of Peace, Councilor, Provider, Protector... And in church just worshipping in His presence made me feel safe and at peace.

there was one song with the lyrics something along the lines of "Jesus is my freedom", and it hit me that much of what i'm bound to is what i tied myself down to. I'm actually free. He has already set me free and I don't have to be tied down by anything. Nothing is too great for my God that He cannot conquer. He makes even the impossible possible. He will make a way... He will make a way :)

come to SMU!

2011-09-01T11:40:00.000+08:00

i wish my bf was in SMU too... in such a stressful environment, having him around would definitely make studying a lot better.

ah, but he'll never come here. he hates SMU. haha!

having a good day :)

2011-08-30T02:54:00.002+08:00

today was an awesome day because i spent the day mostly with victor :) haven't spent time specially with him for the past 3 weeks and we both felt so miserable... so yes, today was a great day :)

had grace's farewell party at XY's place :) bbq, chatting and basically hanging out... charades was quite funny though unplanned. hahaha.. it was nice lah, i miss the class :)

so today was a good break... tmrw's the real 'break' cos it's hari raya public holiday. gonna mug FA. hahaha... also hoping to spend time with the family.

the only annoying part of my day was something annoying me for the past few days. when people just don't want to cooperate, there's only so much i can do. and if i cannot get things done, you cannot blame me because you decided not to be around, not to check your email and neither pick up my call. you have nothing against me. save your own ass.

the bimbo resides

2011-08-25T21:02:00.001+08:00

letting my inner bimbo out for some fresh air. i want a new nail colour, a good massage and some shopping and gossip magazines. (Y)

MS and macro can wait... till midnight.

new beginnings

2011-08-22T00:57:00.002+08:00

I got into Indancity's 5th Exco as the Financial Secretary :) really excited about my role... I want to know how to manage all the $$$$$ hahahaha :) and somehow i'd like to believe i'll be bloody darn good at it.

i'm aching like mad now and would do anything for a massage... :( it's been like 3 weeks since i've went out with victor :'( life's so mean at this point in time.... i'm so busy with school now, and he's got guard duties ever so often.. SIGH. guilt trip x100, heart pain x100000

well, i'm looking forward to Beyond 2011. it's gonna be really soon :) hope that i'll be well prepared for the performance even though we've got so few rehearsals left. :S SIGH.

ok back to reading MPW. cheers!

the end of arts camp/vivace

2011-08-19T01:32:00.002+08:00

tomorrow being vivace would end my responsibilities of being in charge of arts camp and vivace... and the pressure and headache just peaked tonight. i can only hope tomorrow will be a good day...

through this i learnt that it cannot be a one man show. it was never meant to be that way, but i guess certain people are difficult to work with, if they even work at all =.= but then some people came to the rescue and thank GOD they stepped up when the workload got heavy...

you know, as someone said, even if that person has a degree in management communication, and that person is naturally difficult to work with, IT DOESN'T CHANGE A THING.

like omg, learn to work as a TEAM already! you are supposed to be a mature thinking adult, not stuck in lalaland! SERIOUSLY, like seriously, wake up!

i really didn't want to think this way about you, but i'm not the only one who feels the same way. you're a nice person, just not nice to work with.

i've said my peace.

my first summer

2011-08-15T01:37:00.002+08:00

in these 4 months i really had an amazing time...

first it was game theory lessons. i really was so intrigued by it and enjoyed lessons a lot :)

worked at MOE Stellar LC and met such fun colleagues, ate awesome food in ghim moh, earned $$$ without feeling bored!

then Beyond rehearsals started - which got me all dancing again, and it made me very happy ^^ it was Fiesta rehearsals, back-breaking double attitude jumps that i had to learn and i am very proud to say that i can do now (YES!) and bao tui zhuan. WHOO!

Arts Camp/Vivace choreography and rehearsals crept in, then Sepia Rain rehearsal started.

we flew over to Australia for a crazy 8 days, where we danced, shopped, ate, laughed and played to our hearts content. aaaand we won a prize along the way ;)

then it's Arts Camp performance! which was a huge success :)

and then it's Andy's rehearsals...

OIKOS CAMP Together Spellbound was insanely fun, made so many new friends among the facis and freshies. i really don't feel so alone in econs anymore :)

then CONVOC - a whole new world, fiesta reprise.... it was fun hanging out with the dancers, drinking bubble tea every day without getting fat, although the constant warming-up for runs was damaging to my muscles :(

but now... school's starting. summer seriously felt so short even though it was 4 months long. i don't exactly miss school because i've been in school every week... sigh.

i don't regret this summer one bit :)

2nd Convoc

2011-08-13T02:34:00.002+08:00

thank goodness Convoc has ended, so that we have less rehearsals to think about. Now it's back to Beyond rehearsals and Vivace.

ah. Vivace.

Booth + Performance is such a headache to put together.. thank God for jia hong who's doing so much of the marketing and publicity which mainly consists of photographs. if not for him i'll be dying from the workload.

i pray pray pray that andy's item will carry on smoothly, and that no one will cause him anymore problems. SIGH. i feel bad for him because we are in fact the source of trouble and error, but you can't blame us..... it's not us, those who remain. we'll try our best :(

so well, school's starting. whee. i have to get used to studying again... and i'll be hanging out with a different bunch of people now, because i'm doing mostly biz modules :( sigh.

mum's feeling the whole.. your kids are growing up and not listening to you kinda thing. like she's trying to establish her dominance in the household. well, she does have dominance, just that we're not the kids who used to go to bed at 8pm anymore....

tough enough?

2011-08-12T02:09:00.002+08:00

it's great to know that i have friends who will stick by me through tough times and challenges... but there are some things that i have to stand up for myself. and i've got to be... tough.

NDP 2011

2011-08-10T01:24:00.002+08:00

went to catch NDP 2011 @ the Promontory. Went there with Victor and there were some Indancity people there too :) there weren't extra seats so we just sat on the steps with our take-away dinner. NDP this year was pretty nice, creative, artistic and not that cheesy! I love the stage and how the lighting can create such amazing backdrops. I think it's lighted from the bottom, and this creates such a unlimited capacity for the artist! :)

Victor doesn't really watch NDP, so it was quite nice that he wasn't bored. HAHA i found it quite nice :) it's nothing really fantastically new, but it's still... heart warming? I'm patriotic at heart :)

and of course, who doesn't love the fireworks? that was basically the reason why Victor and I decided to go down - to see the fireworks live. I feel really bad that i went there late and left early - totally missing the NUS Rag performances and results - but i guess we all have different reasons in being there. and not like Victor would be interested in Rag for now. but anyhow, the fireworks were amazing :) they're beautifully timed to music, the build up was fantastic and everyone was left mesmerized by the sparkling sky :)

i think singaporeans do not know that fireworks can look ugly. during my trip to china for my ocsp the fireworks after an outdoor concert was TERRIBLE. no variety in height, minimal changes in colour, no musicality and the fireworks went off randomly and it trailed on for so long it wasn't interesting anymore. so yup. singapore fireworks are the bomb!

today mei lin and mummy came back with so much luggage! they paid 800 sing for the excess baggage =.= but they came back with soooo many gifts, especially those from Old Trafford <3 YAY! :D finally, some noise in the house. :)

car day

2011-08-08T01:21:00.002+08:00

mum and ml are coming back on national day! :D can't wait to see their overflowing luggage. hahaha.. i really miss having everyone in the house... like you know, it used to be sunday nights where everyone's making noise at home - piano, guitar, tv, computer, talking, laughing, football, reading newspaper. but now... it's just quiet every night :(

i do appreciate the freedom it gives though. especially now that i have my mum's car... going to church is like, so easy. and thank God that He answered my prayer... i prayed before i left the house that there'll be a parking lot for me in church. HAHAHA otherwise i really don't know what to do. it was raining this morning, and i wouldn't know what to do with a car if i can't find parking. i'll just... drive home T.T

gill and i agree that guys are so full of drama sometimes - like GIRLS. hahahaha... well, i guess it's possible to see too much of a loved one. and sometimes it's never enough. humans never fail to fascinate me... we're just so queer and probably too intelligent for our own good. maybe God should've made the general intellectual capacity of humans lesser so that we're less capable of doing evil.

i miss making music. i can't sing.. and probably the piano is my only outlet of creating music... sometimes words just aren't enough to pull the emotions out of you. that's why we have music.. that's why we have dance too.

one thing i learnt today from service: when you count your blessings, it's not about counting numbers, finances or tallying how many good things have happened to you. it's about thanking God for your life experiences, highs and lows, that have shaped you.

mushy hearts

2011-08-06T03:28:00.001+08:00

this is what i wanna do: catch James Morrison sing this song live and cuddle up next to my bf and croon along and snap my fingers in the nice night breeze. :)

back in the days

2011-08-05T02:11:00.002+08:00

today had a very nostalgic feeling to it...

woke up at 4pm and it was a cool afternoon with showers... it felt as though it were those days mugging for A levels. studying till my eyes couldn't open, and waking up in the afternoon. it was a lazy day, but i knew i still had to get things done.. that was the feeling.

then i went over to toa payoh to buy contact lenses... toa payoh has this nice old school feel to it. i remembered the days we took 142 from SA to toa payoh and you'll send me off at the 143 que before taking the mrt home. there were some days we studied so late that you'll send me home :) then there was this early day during the period where Koi first established itself as a bubble tea shop. tried it for the first time and we sat outside burger king as the sun set... we were talking, laughing and making a fool of ourselves as you used your straw to spit pearls on me. those were good days.... good days indeed.

sigh. the future looks pretty downcast though... uni's starting soon, dance is taking up most of my time... i do foresee dance taking even more time in the future, not that which i mind.. it's just the friction in adjusting my time spent in school, home, with certain friends, family... my family life has kinda disappeared. i miss coming home to dinner, with my sisters and brother. weekends used to be family dinners but now half the family's overseas. no one comes home early. the poor dog is feeling lonely. whatever happened to my home? :(

my heart needs a home...

Oikos Camp 2011 Together Spellbound

2011-08-04T00:09:00.003+08:00

Econs camp was a great and memorable experience :) i thoroughly enjoyed being a faci... and i hope that my freshies will stay tight and enjoy their smu life. there's nothing more a faci could want :)

i think what made my econs camp faci experience even better were my co facis danny and jarvin. those 2 are like bros till the very end, those kind of friends that will last for life. both of them have a great sense of humor and i thank God that i'm co faci with them :) i can totally be myself around them, so it was really fun getting to know them. it's pretty funny that we only know each other from the pre-camp dinner 2 weeks ago.

being a fright night ghost was really an unforgettable experience. i was placed in a stuffy toilet with kessler. i frightened the freshies by suddenly appearing from under a ledge covered with newspaper when they turn a corner in the toilet. ran around to scare them, and basically i'm now known as the most angsty ghost. when i successfully scare a person, the only word that can describe that feeling is shiok! haha :) but there are those terrible ones who are super guailan, those who's reflex is to kick the ghost, the person who grabbed my head and shook it and then pushed my chest?! (this one i really didn't like *death stare*) only made me really angry to yell at them to get out of the toilet.

the freshies enjoyed the camp.. which i thank God for :)

i'm from the clan Aquila, and writing the cheer and choreographing the faci item was really fun :) i taught my facis a simple version of Single Ladies choreo. they took to the choreography well and they memorized all of it, performed it and BANG stole the show. i admit i was a bit strict sometimes.. but i think it's their hard work of practicing and focusing during the practices that made it possible :) we won the best faci performance! :D

sigh.. thinking of the camp, i really don't regret making the decision to be a faci :) the freshies saw my faci interview video where i did a side over-split. hahaha.

i've been sleep deprived for 3 days... slept late to do the faci item and fright night x.x

in more ways than one, i've escaped into another world during this camp... coming back to this world and facing reality is such a bitter pill.

to the barre!

2011-08-01T02:52:00.002+08:00

i have some crazy barre work for convoc finale... gotta train my penshe's? pon-shays... yeah. :(

i'm having one mad busy week.... and bloody hell, school's not even begun. because of convoc, we're literally back in school 5 times a week just before school starts :( sad max.

emotionally drained... and i think i'm quite a lunatic when i don't think straight anymore. i sometimes wonder what's this other side of me that is just so revolting. hai...

camp in 5 hours. intermittent convoc rehearsals. dance rehearsals. sleeping in school....

ehhh very sian leh :(

but there has been 1 piece of good news. SMU Indancity is going to perform at Vivace main stage :) because we signed up for the Dance Off, if the Dance Off is cancelled, we'll be guaranteed a slot to perform at the Main Stage. so yes. i'm very happy that we're getting this chance :)

and dance exco elections coming up. i'm gonna get grilled and i have to just keep my emotions in check. when it comes to pressure.... i'm not sure if i can handle those serious questions that target me. i just get so defensive and when i talk or try to explain myself, i'll just be in tears... SIGH.

getting to know you

2011-07-31T01:43:00.003+08:00

so f-ing emotional.

Aussie and Arts Camp

2011-07-28T01:52:00.002+08:00

We returned from Perth and Melbourne with a Honorable Mention award in the Novelty Troupe category, and our 2 female soloists clinched 1st and 2nd place in the Novice Lyrical Open Age Category :)

on to the fun stuff, i bought so much clothes and shoes and a bag. about 12 pieces of clothing for myself (tops, shorts, dresses, romper) and about 5 pieces of guy clothing. bought also caramelized macadamia nuts for my dad, which he is eating happily every day in front of the tv, and a jasmine and lily room scent for mummy :) spent half of my money on food there...

in perth joel and siu min brought me and my roomies around to eat and take in the beautiful sights of perth! we had fish and chips at fremantle, crepes at fremantle market and authentic italian pasta, pizza and tiramisu. seriously the BEST i've ever eaten. it's SOOOO GOOD. i'd go back to perth just to eat that. hahaha. it's so popular that it opens at 5pm and tables fill by 5.30pm. and they don't open every day. i wonder if it's the sheer amount of money they earn, but no, it's because of the sheer energy they need to run the restaurant with full tables and a snaking que for takeaway every night. phew!

he then drove us to this beach side where we could see the beautiful night lights of perth's CBD. it's gorgeous and looks exactly like a postcard. then in the water we saw 2 pelicans!!! only in perth can you get this kind of experience.

i loved the weather in perth :) then we took a flight to melbourne.... which had tiny tiny apartments. mainly cos it's in the city.

went to yarra valley and over there we had cheese, wine and chocolate tasting :) i actually liked the weird cheeses they let us try. hehe.. bought back a vintage white wine brut from the Chandon vineyard, and bought some gourmet chocolates back. for lunch we went to this lovely lovely restaurant in a vineyard, and the service there was impeccable. when i ordered the beef and wanted it medium rare, the lady boss said it's only available in medium as the chef cooks it altogether. so that was fine, until when i was just served a plate of medium steak and she comes and asks who ordered the medium rare steak! she said the chef screamed at her, but it was okay. :) really really touched by her service. :)

so in melbourne in didn't get to visit my cousin and her family because they were moving house and they were down with the flu :( but i did mail the little gifts to them in a cute winnie the pooh envelope :)

went to Max Brenner's twice in melb! it was so good :) heart warming cocoa, belgium waffles and chocolate souffle ^^ went shopping with the boys at DFO then to Harbourtown. we WALKED there... took 1 hr but we had lovely photos from the walk :)

i was a bit homesick as i didn't have much time to myself... i just wish that i had the apartment to myself to just sit down and do my own things... growing up with siblings has made me treasure my personal space a lot. and i really missed chinese food and singapore food so much even though i was just gone for 8 days.

when i touched down in singapore after a 2 hour delay (delay in the plane getting to melb) mum, dad and km came to fetch me. mum was flying off about an hour after i touched down to find mei lin in germany :) glad i could catch mummy... :)

today was the Arts Camp performance. all that hard work has paid off :) being item ic for this dance has been a real challenge... stressing over choreography, blocking, costumes... but ah, for the company i'm in, it's totally worth every white hair. watching the video of the performance makes me smile and feel so grateful to be dancing with my friends, and that we all put in parts of ourselves into this dance. our character, energy, fun, excitement... and it shows in the way we dance. we do the same steps, but everyone has an expression and character of their own :) it's lovely... simply lovely.

to top that off, many indancity seniors and friends came to support us :) boyfriend also came down, though that didn't turn out too well. but yes... it affirms my feelings that indancity is like family :)

now it's up and on to Vivace 2011 with our performance, dance off and booth. many admin stuff to think of... but yeah. with God's grace, all things are possible. i think without God i wouldn't have survived... He's been there through my distress and I'm grateful for a wonderful, faithful, loving Father :)

today i took the car for the first time. parking in town is bloody expensive. i'm never driving to school ever again. EVER. and i don't want to drive anymore if it isn't necessary.... it's such a headache and liability. URGH.

mixed feelings about it all

2011-07-24T01:37:00.003+08:00

perth and melbourne were great, thank God for all His blessings, esp for the Honorary Mention award and for the success of Clarice and Xinling in their category :)

but one can't expect a trip to pull certain people together... and as such i find myself in fact left observing the process instead of being in it. i'm not upset that i'm not in their group as i clearly know that i don't fit in with them, but it's dealing with rejection and knowing you don't belong in the group anymore that is a struggle.

but then again, moving away from that main group has allowed me to forge deeper friendships with the otherwise ignored people... whom people joke about, laugh about, or don't talk to at all. i find such people more sincere in most of their interactions.

i'm not criticizing that particular group, they are wonderful people. i like them, which makes the process of breaking away from them kind of... hurt. :(

bye SG, hello Perth!

2011-07-13T23:08:00.000+08:00

Pray for Indancity as we go to our CSTD competition in Perth!

day 5?

2011-07-08T01:11:00.004+08:00

i've been seeing victor everyday for the past 4 days! :O it doesn't feel like I've seen him for 5 days... i seem to lose track of time. but either way, i'm just really happy that he's having block leave :)

today was Bass day! victor tried the EB bass.. and he's trying to get this deal online. i hope he gets it! :) then we went shopping and had a super late dinner at a super secret gem of a restaurant :) yummiest lasagna i had outside ever. :3

yesterday was a really lazy day, and we were neighbourhood kids :)

i can't remember what we did on monday and tuesday.... oh no. bad memory :X

oh ya! monday we went to watch Transformers 3 :)

Tuesday was Playnation with some s21 people.

ahhhhh not bad not bad ;)

day 5

2011-07-08T01:11:00.001+08:00

day 5

2011-07-08T01:11:00.000+08:00

is it time to hit the BIG RED panic button?

2011-07-05T01:36:00.002+08:00

i think i'm gonna hit my 'quarter' life crisis soon. hahahaha... never knew it existed till clarice and camie mentioned it today.

my perception of this world is still beautiful.... still nice... still preserved. and i'm naive, i admit. i will cherish this moment, as it'll probably shatter in a matter of time.

sinking roots

2011-07-04T02:04:00.001+08:00

starting to feel more bonded among the year 1 "junior" dancers. :) the vivace/arts camp item is shaping up really nicely and we're all having fun in the process of creating this new dance :) they put in so much effort to stay back till past 11pm and we'll all get ice milo tgt and they'll cab home. it's very costly but they all don't mind... i'm really touched by them lah :')

i sincerely hope with all my heart that we'll get to perform to both vivace and arts camp. the vivace auditions are on tuesday, and only 6 will get in. it's such a waste of all their effort if we only perform this item once. SIGH.

but God has been so good to us. there was one point in time where we had only 4 rehearsals left to vivace audition, but with His blessing we managed to call for tuesday rehearsal and then random slots where the cca hall or level 7 would be free and we could use them. i feel so blessed and supported right now :)

being item i/c for this juniors item is quite stressful... it's really more of managing the item, not choreographing it. the end goal is to have an item put up in the end. and so costumes worry me just as much as choreography... hahaha. overall presentation of the dance during the auditions is really important... SIGH.

but i'll pray and pray, and God will make a way :) maybe He has other plans installed for us.

2011-07-01T02:17:00.002+08:00

i love this :)

today started awesome because it was raining and i could sleep in :) then i worked for just 3 hours and got a half-day pay (btw work is only 15 mins away from home), then met my dearest boy after work and for dinner at casuarina prata.

i'm so happy being myself! ^^ + being myself around victor and having fun is really da bomb. hahahaha... pardon my bad engrish!

i'm currently praying about dance exco... studies... bidding... vivace/arts camp.. i'm in such a dilemma that could upset the whole balance of my schooling life!

i have to remind myself that i have to aim for excellence, not perfection. to honour God in all that I do, and to live out my purpose.

sounds so serious? yeah. taking life seriously helps sometimes. hahaha...

songs that go into repeat...

2011-06-30T00:12:00.002+08:00

When i feel a bit emo i tend to listen to songs on repeat... and certain phrases keep repeating in my head. sigh.

i have so much to work on as a dancer. firstly my posture when i dance - i actually hunch. like !@£*% i can go shoot myself now. next, i tend to forget steps nowadays. and pointing of toes... and back strength? and arm strength?

facing the facts that you suck in something you love sends you deep...

maybe i need a deep sleep? haha... idk.

anyway, today was the last day at ghim moh... and i've grown attached to that place even though i was there for just 3 weeks. the old estate charm it has, the convenience of the market, hawker centre and all the mama shops and fruit stalls. i love that place although it's a bit far from the main road...

i never got a chance to experience the HDB like. to have a bus stop, mrt, hawker centre, supermarket, market, kindergarten and schools all near your flat. playing with kids at the playground without knowing their names.... i can only dream what it's like. :(

i'm not complaining about how i grew up. i loved having a garden and playing with my neighbours in it. i just wonder about a parallel universe... and perhaps how lovely it'd be to experience all the goodness in life... :)

maybe in a parallel universe i would've been a gymnast! or a nerd. or a sporty girl if i didn't make it through Modern Dance auditions in sec 1. :) or went to another school if i did better than 219 for PSLE. or if i was a rebellious teenager! :D hahahaha..

but y'know, i love this life of mine. and i'm very grateful for what i have, and what i don't have. this is the perfect cure to depression... seeing where you are, and how far you've come.

i'm bloody 20 already... in my head i still think i'm 18. in many ways, i feel i can mature more, be more responsible.... but adulthood once entered can never be left. i'll hold on to my childhood for as long as society allow me to..... hahaha :)

prayer movement

2011-06-25T01:44:00.000+08:00

can we move as much spiritually as we do physically? i certainly hope so. praying for guidance and courage to start something new.

Beauty

2011-06-22T13:43:00.002+08:00

I am amazed at God's creation of Man, and I now understand better, though not fully, what it means when the Bible says "God makes everything beautiful in His time".

Talking about beauty involves the sense of sight, and so naturally, beauty is about looks. However, I realise that although not all of us are blessed with good looks, we're equally blessed with beauty still :)

I have friends who take beautiful photographs.

I have friends who dance and move beautifully.

I have friends who sing beautifully.

I have friends who draw beautifully.

I have friends who write and speak beautifully.

I have friends who cook and bake beautifully.

I have friends who play musical instruments beautifully.

I have friends who pray beautifully.

I have friends who play sports beautifully.

And the list goes on! I find myself in awe of how normal things such as playing basket ball can show such athletic grace. Or even mothers, who so efficiently look after 3 children.

God really makes EVERYBODY beautiful in their own ways :) Thank God for that!

a crazy week ahead?

2011-06-22T00:26:00.003+08:00

I just came back from Oikos mock camp and i enjoyed myself :) it wasn't torturous, and it was fun in some places. no crappy food too, mostly cos it's OTOT. but anyway, i think it's the same realization for many of us that we do not know many people in econs. when we all turned up at briefings or at day 1, we're all like, THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE I'VE NEVER SEEN IN MY LIFE! which is pretty funny. HAHAHA :)

then came back to school for vivace rehearsal... and i'm really happy with this rehearsal :) it was hilarious, we enjoyed ourselves so much, and we got a lot of work done. (Y) didn't feel tired even though i just had camp. haha...

now i'm tired though. gonna bathe and work tmrw.

thank God for great friends, a good camp, lovely dancers and for protection wherever i went :) Praise the Lord!

zoom zoom!

2011-06-20T01:34:00.002+08:00

things have been moving so fast that i don't even find it worthwhile to spend time recording stuff down!

sisters birthdays came and went like it didn't happen because both of them are overseas. :/ guess we'll celebrate when they both come back...

father's day today was quite nice because we had popiah lunch :) and a few relatives came over... which was really great because i've not seen them in such a long time since i started having night rehearsals in school.

i'm really disappointed in myself for not attending church for... 3 or 2 weeks? i'm feeling spiritually dry... and my life is threatening to spin out of control, and i feel like i'm not living my life so well :( what i'm grateful for is cell group on friday. at least that has kept me sane...

when i'm spiritually lacking, i become less patient, less loving to the people around me, and also more lost :( it affects the people around me as much as i don't want it to... so i have that responsibility to keep myself close to God and to love the people around me.

i pray that God will make a way, when there seems to be no way... and to draw me nearer and ever so near to His heart.

Romans 8:37-39

³⁷ No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. ³⁸For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,^[k] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, ³⁹ neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

^$£(@)

2011-06-17T00:34:00.002+08:00

i felt like swearing since the late afternoon, then it disappeared and was replaced by a calm happiness, and now it comes back again smack in the face. BAM!

URGH!!!!! i'm such a failure sometimes. SCREW. THIS. bad day.

the 1am curse

2011-06-11T01:19:00.002+08:00

sigh... always up past 1am :( just packed for dance camp, and very frustrated at how big the bag is, and how i can't find my other pair of black ballroom heels D: did i lend them to someone?? >.<

just baked... salted chocolate chunk m&m's and almond cookies! hahahahaha:) i like the salty batter the best... i think it's got a bit too much chocolate. oops. too bad.

missing victor :(

oh well. i was so tired after work today. at least i finally ate at the ghim moh market :)

can't go for GDOP on sunday... sigh :(

not in a good mood now.

STELLAR!

2011-06-09T00:42:00.002+08:00

Work's been pleasant so far :) Got an office full of nice people who actually care for you :)

Right now though.... lightning in the sky, victor in the jungle, had 2 really humid and hot days in a row..... this all means that it's gonna be one heavy, heavy downpour. NOOOOOO my boyfriend will be soaked in the jungle :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:( bahhhhhhhhh >:(

My body clock's screwed. I can't sleep earlier than 1am. SIGH.

and I really thank God for this job... Finding a temp job, an admin job to be specific, for just 1 month is almost impossible. I thank God in all sincerity...

jungle warfare 2... or is it 3?

2011-06-06T03:14:00.002+08:00

i must be crazy. Youtube is like my best friend.... i spent 2 hours watching The Sing-Off on it, and i'm soooooo blown away at home amazing they are! I wish i could sing too... :<

the boyfriend's going for outfield tmrw... at least he's no longer a recruit, so he isn't gonna suffer as much, unless it rains like how it did this morning.... i was awoken at 6am because of the loud thunder! so anyway, i'm praying that it won't rain (not that heavily in any case) and that he'll come back safe and sound :)

i am such a naggy item i/c! whoo!

blue and bruised

2011-06-03T18:49:00.002+08:00

got a B+ for Game Theory, and this is explained by a C for the final paper...

i wouldn't say i'm shocked, because i know i did badly... and i guess i have to face the consequences :( and the bell curve shows a great number of A's and A+'s... SIGH.

next sem will be tougher because i'll be taking on Macroecons, Management Science, Financial Accounting, Marketing - and i don't know if i can handle another module. What's more, i need an A- for Marketing and MS. Should i take 4 mods instead of 5, and spend the rest of the time studying?

I really need to pull my GPA up. it went from 3.66 to 3.63 to 3.61. can cry liao T.T

Next Sem: GAMBATTE!!!!!!!!!!!!! maybe i should start studying now? o.o

MOE Performance @ Orchard Hotel

2011-06-03T01:14:00.002+08:00

tonight we danced a scaled-down version of Break of Dawn for MOE's dinner function. We had only 10 girls and 3 guys, but it went really well :) we got to shake hands with the out-going minister Dr Ng Eng Hen and the in-coming minister Mr Heng Swee Keat :)

the emcee's introduction to our item was really fluffy... something about they will let you hear the sound of angels blah blah... which i always had to try not to laugh upon hearing. hahaha :)

Nanyang Girls High also did a chinese dance item for them, and my uncle said it was really good :) the opening and closing of the night was by St Andrew's Junior School and National Junior College choirs respectively.

so after the show, those of us who did not have to rush to another rehearsal in school (i had to last night) went down to Macdonald's for some ice cream and fries :) Wen jun was really nice to do our orders and treat us to fries :D though really, his "kleptomaniac" habits really need to be reigned in, especially at the sight of drinking glasses. HAHAHA.

before all this dance things occured, i managed to spend time with victor today because he took leave :) yay! went for lunch with him and his mum to Jack's Place. his mum is really, really nice... it's easy to talk to her and she drove me all the way down from mindef to dhoby ghaut >.< i'm seriously super undeserving... she doesn't even drive often. so paiseh >.<

now i'm hoping for a job soon. there's this really good opportunity for me to work at Newton, under MOE's english branch. through the same uncle who was at the MOE dinner tonight, thank God that i can ask him for a job. Apparently, they're shifting the premises to Newton, which is just 1 stop away from home, and they have no administrative support staff! so my uncle said it was very interesting that i asked for a job.

it's amazing how perfectly aligned this job opportunity is for me, and i PRAY that it'll go through. otherwise God knows it's better for me to find another job, though this *seems* really good.

tomorrow's another free day till night time when i have cell. 1 day of break is fine, but 2 days back to back of lazing at home gets a bit boring... but still okay. 3 days will make me go crazy if i stay home.

but going out entails spending money. so i'd rather stay home, eat at home unless i'm meeting a friend. no point going out alone.... so yup. hopefully tmrw will go well. yup :)

and you know... i feel really blessed right now that my r/s with victor is still okay... from all the relationships we knew that formed in JC, now only 2 remain :( its' so sad right? :(

planning mid term

2011-05-31T02:18:00.003+08:00

now that summer term is over, which i don't know if i'm going to regret, i've got nothing to do tmrw. in a way, i think i'm freaking out as to what to do..... got nothing on in the month of june. so the natural thought is to find some work. trying to find the best deal.... but who'd wanna hire for 1 month?

got nothing to do tmrw. sigh. i keep tricking myself that a day to rest is well deserved after the exams, but when that day comes i get bored. it's sad really.

there's only so many hours a person can sleep and spend time online surfing the net. :( i only like free days when i spend it with people, more specifically, people i like. haha :)

so hopefully i'll have something to do tomorrow. yup.

today was spent watching dance videos online, reading a bit, and watching Kungfu Panda 2 with KM. i got a headache after the show because it was 3D. it's so not my thing. my eyes were hurting :( but i loved the movie. it's funny, and it's got heart :)

i'm losing track of the relationships around me.... and i thank God that i'm still going strong with victor. i definitely need to be careful not to take this for granted.

PUPPIES!

2011-05-30T00:36:00.002+08:00

Look at THIS!!!!

so cute right? :3 today after dance practice i went to join some s21 people at Nex for dinner :) some of them caught Kungfu Panda 2 before that, of which i was supposed to join. But i think i'll go with my brother tmrw or something :) anyway, we walked around Nex and went to the top floor! and there was this doggie agility course + pet safari! and the puppies were so adorable...... *heart melt*

i'm really really happy this week :) it's been a tiring, emotional and also happy week :) the lowest point was the Game Theory final exam which made me really depressed... another terrible thing was travelling to Woodlands RP 3 days in a row. it's really, really far. Thank God that i've got wonderful friends who drive, and a wonderful mum who came to support my performance :) also, thanks to shan and jes who came to watch too :)

what was good though, was having fun backstage. it's no longer the crazy camwhoring stuff that i used to have in SA. we're a lot more efficient, and also more time constrained... so it was mostly cheerful people who made things a lot lighter backstage :) it was fun performing again. although it was super tiring to push yourself to dance so many days in a row, it's still an awesome feeling :)

another nice thing is being able to spend pockets of time with victor :) went to watch Pirates movie, attended Evelyn's wedding, then today we went out with the class. So, i managed to see him thrice this week! hehe! :D his outfield with the recruits is coming up though. so he's gonna be confined for 2 weeks with them. i somehow think it's gonna be quite fun for him, since he's the one punishing people............. hmm.

so now, i'm an unemployed student, kinda dancing a lot, kinda gonna rest a lot too :)

ooh, and i picked up this book, Thereby Hangs a Tale by Jeffery Archer. Thumbs up to this amazing author.... and to short stories :) forgot how enjoyable it is to be lost in a book. when i made my way to RP i basically walked from the MRT to RP with my nose buried in the book, reading reading reading... just couldn't put the book down, even in the dressing room. HAHAHA :)

so yup :) no plans tmrw. gonna laze in bed, and maybe go out with my brother. ^^ TOODLES! LOVE YOU!

for His love endures forever!

2011-05-28T01:16:00.002+08:00

Lord, in front of You I fall down

to surrender my all, my crown

of pain, suffering, joy and happiness

in humble gratitude and gratefulness.

For You have given me such wonderful

things, from gifts, dance, to even studying in school.

Good and bad things come and go,

but You stay the same Lord, to You I'll hold.

I cannot give back as much as I wish,

for it's not by my works is your will finished.

I only want to live each day,

in hope, love and Your amazing grace.

a little less conversation

2011-05-26T00:11:00.002+08:00

you know when you care for someone when their pain is more important to you than them.

i wish my mum didn't have to work so hard :( she's really so strong... i can't even match half of what she can manage. with all the stress from home, work and elsewhere, it's beyond me how she is able to cope.

i wonder what my dad does... does he help her? i think so. whenever mum's too busy, he'll always always be there. rarely have i found myself unable to find my parents when i need them most.

and so i strive to be as good, or even half as good as them. that would be an achievement. to have your kids love you, to be yourself, to have a spouse who loves you, to have a home, and to love oneself.

That's what i call blessed.

the real world?

2011-05-24T02:10:00.003+08:00

i'm not ready for the Real world. i can't say that i've seen what it really is... the brutality, darkness and the ugly side of society. i doubt i can even fend for myself....

nobody goes around asking for trouble, and in fact people pray for peace. i've been privileged to grow up in a country that doesn't have natural disasters. i've never seen wreckage or death of a person in front of my eyes.

i don't really meet people who are socially different from me... and i'm ashamed that i'm so protected, and to a certain extent, avoiding such encounters too. :( JC and Uni really do have the top percentile of the nation...

i should expose myself to such things so that i won't be weak anymore.

of dance

2011-05-23T14:58:00.003+08:00

i've got the weirdest bruises on my shoulders now. They look like staples, a small thin rectangle on both sides of my shoulders. I wondered how on earth I could get such a weird bruise, then I remembered wearing my sports bra instead of a leotard, thus the buckle to adjust the length of the straps caused the imprints while doing the shoulder rolls :X

I need to keep up this juggling act of sorts. Everyone's so busy... Can I un-busy myself? :(

pictures

2011-05-22T02:04:00.002+08:00

a few of my favourite pictures from the photoshoot with Pris :)

i feel humbled by these photographs. some are beautiful, but in every picture i think there would be something i could improve on. for example, not looking into the camera, improving my arch, my back's flexibility... nobody's perfect, and nobody can ever be perfect. thank God for blessing me with this opportunity, and for the preparation He's given me up to this point. thank God also for the fine weather we had during the shoot. storm clouds with lightning threatened to pour down on us, but they held up and we had a good time in the lalang field.

living in His grace and mercy, we are so not worthy.

passionate

2011-05-20T15:47:00.002+08:00

the feeling i'm having now is like your world losing colour - fading into hues of grey and black.

thinking back about my life so far since i've entered SMU, i don't remember the last time i felt so excited till my heart wanted to burst, or so happy that i could break out into dance, or so energetic that i wouldn't want to sleep all night.

i'm not complaining about SMU, studying or my bf for that matter.

i think i have a problem with short term memory. in trying to catch up with studies, dance, friends and basically chasing after everything, life passes by in a whir of motion. i can't say to myself "stop" or "pause".

I'm sure all of us in school, work, army and at home face this disease of filling up our plates with activities and things to do, that on the very much treasured free days, they become boring. which is such a pity :(

i don't want life to rush past me and not before long i face (worldly) death. i'd be willing to give up some life "achievements" to enjoy life a little better... and prepare for heaven better too...

but knowing me, i wouldn't want to let go of achievements i know i can reach.

will this ambition get the better of me?

religiously speaking, this life is for preparation for eternal life. meaning to preach, pray and have faith, and to be enjoyed. but the system of modern life puts extra expectations on humans to work, serve and earn money. i believe that God puts some of us in this crazy system to bring us to where He wants us to go to.

In a way, i also believe that it was God's plan for me to enter SMU. for what reason, i've yet to find out.

dance photoshoot

2011-05-20T00:41:00.003+08:00

Today i had a dance photoshoot with Priscilla Tan :) went to Mandarin Gallery, *Scape, National Museum and a lalang field in punggol.

Really tired.

Feeling pretty empty... i know what i'm doing. but i guess i'm feeling out of it at the moment. like i've lost my sense of taste. things are bland right now.

cheers to my last lesson on Game Theory tmrw. exams in one week.

Money can't buy you happiness, but it gets close enough!

2011-05-18T00:06:00.002+08:00

I spent $100 on myself today :) $54 on clothes, $30 on lunch/dinner, $20 on concealer. hehehehe :D:D:D:D:D:D

Spent the day with Shan at Vivo City, basically talked and talked, went from shop to shop, ate super a lot of sushi :D tried clothes, and had the day to ourselves :) Jesmen came along afterward for dinner though we didn't eat. Chatted over food then roamed a bit before I left those lovebirds alone. hahaha :)

I'm having such a bad breakout now :( why why WHY do i have such bad skin D: and of all times, before a dance photoshoot on thursday :'(

SIGH!

another great day :)

2011-05-17T02:05:00.002+08:00

today was a lazy lazy day, went over to victor's, watched fast and furious 5, which is an awesome show, then went to have dimsum at geylang :)

although my stomach felt a bit queasy after dimsum (either i ate too much, or my stomach was being sensitive), i'm feeling very rested and happy :)

it's great having someone you can spend so many hours with and never get bored :) and it also pays to have a guy who foots the bill ;) hahahaha... he's a real gentleman :) he doesn't refuse to pay, and doesn't refuse when i pay either. (Y)

right. tmrw's a public holiday and i'm going shopping with shan! :D then, i'll need to study at least 1 chapter of game theory and DANCE!

2011-05-16T02:36:00.002+08:00

breaking out! i don't understand WHY i still have PIMPLES D: bane of my face. everyone around me has flawless skin..... no scars, no pimples, no acne. :( whyyyyyy :(

my bf's pmsing. i'm pmsing.

TORNADO!

really sleepy but i'm waiting for that boy to reply me before i can sleep. i bet he's gaming i tell you.... hmph!

Victory Parade

2011-05-14T23:28:00.003+08:00

Good news of the day: Man Utd are the champions of the EPL, beating Liverpool's run on winning the most number of EPL titles! :)

Highlight of the day: Chilling at Lor Broun catching victor play in Stadium :)

What's special today: BRMC's 55th Anniversary!

I need to stop focusing on the negative and worrying about the things to come. For tmrw has it's own worries. One should plan for the future, but should not regret living in the moment.

peace.

music fix

2011-05-12T16:02:00.000+08:00

got a headache from staring at music videos. haha :)

my mind drifted into the clouds and i started building castles. fabricating my own little lala land in my head. it is filled with music, happy hearts, joy and love.

i have to do with that for now before i go to heaven :P

but yeah, many things i wish weren't happening. i wish army treated my bf better. i wish there wasn't the nuclear crisis in japan. i wish the climate didn't go berserk.

i just watched a snippet of a document on how the universe was formed. turns out that blackholes are formed when a supermassive star 100 times bigger than the sun dies. it's gravity sucks in the core of the star in milliseconds. then, the star explodes and expels a hypernova. Robots sent into space to record the number of hypernovas found 1 produced everyday! this means there are MANY BLACKHOLES in the universe, and they are in fact not that far from earth.

blackholes are the end of everything. they are the end of time, matter and space. their gravity is so strong that it can suck light, that's why a blackhole is black!

so have you thought of how it'll be like when everything ceases to exist? everything we know from time, to space, to matter to ourselves would cease to exist. i mean if everything disappeared, there'll be a void. then is the void actually in something? like a container? is there actually a limit to outer space?

ahh, maybe when the world ends, the whole universe is destroyed and there'll only be heaven and hell. :) maybe God created earth for man and other "earths" for other "mans" and we all have an apocalyptic ending together!

hahaha only God knows how this universe is made, and how it's all going to end. i doubt humans would ever be able to find out how God did creation. I wouldn't think God would want us to have that much knowledge because we'll only destroy each other.

what is time?

2011-05-11T01:40:00.002+08:00

I am letting my mind 'ramble' here. HAHA please don't read on as it is not very interesting. I'm warning you! MUAHAHAHA!

I find myself waiting... a lot... albeit not being forced to do so, though i may not say willingly.

I wait to be entertained... by the news, and mostly updates on facebook. It eats so much into my time, yet i find an escape of 'doing' something so i won't have to do something that i have to do. e.g. read my notes, decipher chapter 9 of game theory and to do my devotion before i sleep.

Time.

I'd like to say that time is the only constrain of man :)

Geographical boundaries are pretty well-explored. People are going into the earth, above the earth, around the earth. The only thing stopping people from exploring galaxies is that they'll probably die while trying to escape our solar system as it will take too many lightyears to get there. The most obscure idea is to send generations of people onto a space shuttle and send them and let them procreate on the rocket. Assuming children can grow up in that environment and everything goes perfectly well, technically it should work, but even if they found out more about another galaxy, or found alien lifeforms and all that, how would information be transmitted back to earth? Even a distress signal wouldn't be heard. Maybe it's just too far away in time.

Time is probably relative. Not going to talk about Relativity which was greatly expounded on by Einstein. Instead, I'm going to talk about the value of time. On earth, time has value because humans are mortal and not everything is permanent. Ah, I'm not really making a point here, am I? *scrap*

Sometimes I wish I knew how my thoughts come about. How do people generate random thoughts, actually? How is it that the human brain can link up so much information, store a substantial amount of it, and bring it up at random times without invoking a memory? Fascinating :) I wouldn't think I'd be able to put all my information into a computer memory, and make it think the way I do.

Then how is it that brains are 'wired' in such a unique way although it has the same composition. If different people are exposed to the same information and experiences in their lives, they still wouldn't think the same way because we 'see' things differently from our own 'perspectives'. The moment we are born, we begin to think differently.

I marvel at the uniqueness of people... It's like, God's biggest clue that He has different plans for each and every one of us :)

Creation is just so amazing, isn't it? :) Chance would definitely not be able to create such a complex world with even more complex human beings. :)

I SEE!

2011-05-09T01:36:00.003+08:00

glorious match of Man Utd beating Chelsea 2-1 in THE pivotal match of the season! now Man Utd is 6 points clear of Chelsea, and also gunning to win the Champion's League against Barcelona, and also the FA Cup against Stoke City.

how can anyone NOT like Man Utd? :D

anyway, game theory mid terms is coming and i need to pia really really hard this week.

my final exam is on the same day as my performance at RP's Momentum dance festival.

furthermore, trying to keep up with studying and also with dance practices, being item i/c's for Andy's item and the Junior's item for Vivace/Arts Camp is going to be really tough....

oh God, what do You have in store for me? it's exciting how You open doors for me, and push me to my limits... but sometimes i fear not being able to complete the tasks You set out for me :( i need Your help....... :(

Y1T2 results

2011-05-06T17:34:00.002+08:00

my gpa dropped to 3.63 :[ too many B+'s and A-'s i think, and not enough A's that i need to pull up my gpa....

but you know, i still have to thank God for my results. it wasn't a major fluctuation and i think it's giving me a reality check that i have to work harder in uni than in JC. also, there are some subjects where i completely didn't think i'll even survive, but came out doing pretty okay.

I think it would have been much more devastating if not for God's help... but i do admit that it could've been better if i didn't want to try to do well by my own effort - because my own effort alone is never enough to do well. it has always been that way.

i guess one lesson that is learnt here is that i have to totally rely on God's provision. and i mean totally. i felt helpless and unable to do much more during A levels and i remember just throwing all my anxiety to God and praying so much because i tried to do it by my own effort and i got burnt out.

the second lesson is that God has a plan for me - and it doesn't always mean 4.0 gpa. if it is God's will, then i will get 4.0, or the 3.7 that i was aiming. He knows my heart well enough to know what will happen if He granted me my wishes. He gives and takes away, and my Father knows what is best for me.

LTB is a surprising result. Biz law too. TWC is okay. AS is okay. but my most disappointing is a B+ for micro.... i really thought i'll get an A :(

still, i must thank a few people for being there for me during my stressful studying periods.

i thank the girl who i always hang out in school with - Audrey. she took all my ramblings and whining and complaining... sometimes i think i'm a really bad friend to her as i don't treat her as well as i should sometimes :( but thank you for being so very patient with me. really cannot survive SMU without you. love you babe.

my project members. LTB, AS, TWC. you guys were great team members, and i couldn't have done well without your cooperation :) thank you guys so so much :)

to victor, for letting me study on days even when you booked out. hahaha... but really, i think i would be crying over my drop in gpa and not reaching dean's list if not for you. sometimes i'm too hard on myself, and you're the one who makes sure i'm okay. so thank you my dear :) for watching out for me and for being so understanding. love you.

and mum and dad for always fetching me around when it's late in school... i cannot thank you for your selflessness in raising me. and for the school fees you have to pay, and allowance and everything. i'm well protected... and i thank you for the opportunity to study in uni.

and gilly. for reminding me of how far we've come since st. margs and for still remembering me from the UK. miss you babe....

so.. well..

full steam ahead for Game Theory summer term!

mid terms next saturday, final exam in 3 weeks.

I CAN DO THIS! I AM GOING TO RAISE MY GPA!!!!!

run run run!

2011-05-04T22:34:00.003+08:00

went for another run today :) in attempt to burn those fats and lose some weight. Also with the aim to get a bit fitter so i won't die during the first dance practice :)

the exercise kinda got cancelled off with the cream of mushroom soup during dinner =.= sigh......

trying to apply for Spring exchange. hope it goes okay! :S

what a strange me

2011-05-04T00:23:00.002+08:00

i like to make myself feel busy so that i feel useful. hahaha what a hideous thing to do, huh? ^^

i pierced my ears overseas in Australia when I was 12 without much contemplation after my friend egged me on. hahahaha :) it was nice to buy earrings for the first time while on holiday :) still got my first pair of earrings with me :) ... ( i realise that i saved quite a lot of money piercing my ears there)

the guy who pierced my ears had huge rings in his earlobes, that i could fit a 50c coin, or larger, into it! so it was quite scary. he had many piercings everywhere... but i somehow thought, if he pierced himself so many times, i'm sure he'll know how to pierce my little ears. HAHA :) his female colleague did it instead, and said i had cute little ears :) hehehe... my ears are a little smaller than average. *random*

i don't think i'm going to pierce another ear hole, or anywhere for that matter. i can't even be bothered to put on earrings on a regular basis. the hassle of taking them off when i have to bathe, and then deciding what to wear in the morning to complement my outfit is just to troublesome.

btw, i love game theory. class is really interesting! i now know how to play the games in Survivor and Amazing Race. and of course all the business applications etc... i know my strategies, so don't play play with me! ;)

boy in army is like entering another world: different language, minimal communication with the real world, surrounded by guys, barking orders and taking orders. then weekend is like to recharge their batteries.... sigh. they enjoy it though. not needing to use their brains and comparing it to uni, they prefer army any day. hahaha... oh well :) something i'll never need to experience, not even in war.

osama is dead! at least that's what we think. for all we know, the US made a pact with osama to give him plastic surgery and lead a new life. actually, why didn't osama just go for plastic surgery?????

power perfected in weakness

2011-05-02T18:18:00.002+08:00

i'm grateful for the talents and opportunities God has bestowed upon me, however, sometimes i feel the heavy burden to use these to the fullest. it stresses me and stirs up such anguish when i find myself stuck, not knowing where to go from here.

the solution would be to entrust everything to God, and pray for guidance. i don't think humans can be expected to know what to do with God-given things.

so trust in Him, and seek His council. For it is said:

⁹ But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

a quiver of arrows

2011-05-02T02:30:00.002+08:00

i'm getting the jitters knowing that my church is in charge of this year's GDOP :) it's... really exciting thinking about it.

did you know that GDOP has been held at all 220 countries around the world? and surprisingly, a check up of the number of countries in the world stands at 195. anyway, the significance is... we are moving closer than we think to the day where every person on earth would have heard about Jesus - the End Times.

it is scary to think of the End Times. and honestly, it's the persecution that awaits that scares me... i'm not a solider, nor trained to fight. but i will (and already have) something to fight for - and that won't be my life. defending my religion would be in dark times... riled with uncertainty. who can i trust? where can i go?

i consider myself a very peace-loving person. if somebody wants to pick a fight with me, i'll refuse to fight back. but would i be forced to fight for what i believe in? 100% yes.

i pray that i'll be able to stay in the Light of God during the End Times, if i'm not yet dead. and it will shine away all the darkness around me and also the darkness that threatens to fill my heart. i pledge allegiance to my Saviour, and He lives in me.

pleasantries

2011-05-01T00:59:00.002+08:00

horrendously bloated from drinking water to stop my hiccups. o'.'o

anyway, went to Hatched today at evans road with victor. it was okay i guess, not worth going back again although i loved the setting, with sunlight streaming in from the windows and cute decor. it's unlike the steak we had at duxton hill last time :) really want to eat there again.

i want to try the pizzeria behind rex theatre next time. drove by a few times and saw many caucasians eating there. for some hidden place, it's pretty popular. so i guess if (supposed) italians are going there, it must be good :)

i realized one new thing about myself today... i can't respond when people pressure me for answers. if this translates to the inability to think on the spot, i'm pretty much doomed.

virgin karaoke experience

2011-04-30T00:42:00.003+08:00

i sound like a little girl singing in karaoke! my LTB group went to Teo Heng family ktv... hahahaha :) i think it's quite fun :) but my throat kinda hurt after singing a few too-high-pitched songs. bad singing technique.

then we ate katong laksa, which isn't as great as the yishun one. hahahhha... overrated ttm.

then dunkin donuts at city hall :)

we celebrated si min's and brien's birthdays! with cold stone creamery's strawberry cheese ice cream cake, which was really nice :)

sigh. game theory is really interesting, but the only thing that is killing me is the readings! i'm trying so hard to catch up... not enough time to read unless i read every day :( i'm 3 chapters behind!!!!!!! D: sigh.

i want a nice pleasant weekend to destress... and i kinda don't feel like studying cos it's meant to be a holiday. i guess having something unpleasant in your holidays will make you optimize your time that's free :) heehee...

i wonder what my future job will be, what my future family will be.... and what my marriage is gonna be like :) after watching william and kate's wedding (which is so splendid!) i really hope that my wedding will be as happy :) and one thing's for sure... i'll wanna stick with it to the end :)

p.s. can i just say how beautiful you are? i can be angry at you, but once you smile, i really can't continue being angry at you. how unfair is that? you really are quite something :)

some results

2011-04-29T14:55:00.002+08:00

i couldn't open my blog's URL, and i thought my gmail got hacked or something :X

got A- for TWC and B+ for AS.

I don't think my GPA is going to improve like this, unless i have miracle A+'s for Biz law, micro and LTB.

SIGH.

$88

2011-04-27T14:14:00.002+08:00

that's the most i have paid for a textbook so far in SMU. sigh... couldn't find any 2nd hand books around :( heart pain.

prof was pretty interesting :) the lesson is quite fast-paced though. i fear not being able to catch up. oh well... got to step up to it and make my $989 + $88 worthwhile! hahaha..

in the library now but not studying. HAHA it's quite a nice place actually... aircon, internet, peace and quiet :) no stress being here, burdened by looming exams.

i've got 5 weeks. LET'S GO!

p.s. there's this University of Economics, Prague. i really want to go there because it's just in Prague. their website not very helpful though :( not sure if i can map modules over.......

a new season begins!

2011-04-27T01:00:00.002+08:00

tomorrow will be my first taste of summer class - Game Theory. hope it goes well!

today i went to the Singapore Biennale 2011 :D went to the one at National Museum after trying to buy my game theory textbook in school. so i spent an hour there and got quite absorbed by some of the artwork featured there. :) quite enjoyed myself there, getting lost in space and time.

i loved some of the exhibits, especially the ones by Jill Magid, Navin Rawanchaikul is my favourite, and the tapestry of Shao Yinong & Muchen was gorgeous... the idea of politics embroided in money... wow :) and the floating models of Tiffany Chung of the Vietnamese river... wow :) really enjoyed it.

after going to the museum, i went to toa payoh to get my contact lenses, and decided to get my eyes checked. lo and behold, my right eye's myopia increased by 50 degrees, and my left eye also increased by 100 degrees! sigh. i'm turning blind x.x -300 degrees on each eye. sigh..........

just one of those days...

2011-04-24T23:51:00.002+08:00

i sometimes feel like i'm a burden to people... my mum, dad, boyfriend, friends...

and i seriously hate feeling this way... i feel pathetic and incapable of doing anything. i do question my self-worth at times.

and i'm sorry to admit that i need attention every now and then.

and i admit i'm vain.

so there. i've spit it out.

time to move on.

Good Friday

2011-04-23T00:46:00.002+08:00

a philosophical and academic sermon today at 8.30am service by Rev Dr Mark Chan truly brought home the message - that someone as pure and as sinless as Jesus came to earth with the purpose to die for unworthy people like us.

sometimes it's so foreign to us, to think that someone died for you two thousand years ago. but when Rev Mark told the story of this Russian Pastor who took the place of this man in concentration camp in Nazi times. he really died in the place of this complete stranger.

such is the love of Christ.

Keep Going...

2011-04-21T00:48:00.003+08:00

Those who hope on the Lord shall renew their strength, they will run on wings like eagles, they will walk and not grow weary, they will run and not be faint.

Even though i can't be there to support you, nor to understand what you're facing in camp, i have faith that you'll be okay :) God is watching over you.

I'll whisper a prayer for you...

time machine

2011-04-19T00:45:00.001+08:00

if i could plan my future perfectly, how perfect it would be?

if chance could have it's way, would things be better between us?

that summer feelin'

2011-04-16T02:28:00.002+08:00

today is the day i experience my first summer, and i'm loving it :)

biz law was so contentious and convoluted and confusing. it (literally) gave me a headache after the paper!

so i had dinner with lionel and audrey at watami and it was nice :)

reached home and i got onto facebook!!!! i think i'm such a fb whore. was online from 8-10pm and i think i shared more than 5 videos?! oops. sorry guys. suddenly fb got more active because of me. hehe ^^

and then what gave today the best round off was victor came over to watch a home movie with me :) ain't that sweet?

i can totally get used to this. :)

it takes a lot of courage to do biz law

2011-04-15T00:08:00.000+08:00

doing past year papers kinda freaked me out.. it's so difficult to do biz law :(

i really wonder how calm and collected i can be tomorrow...

Not much i can do now to stuff my brain with concepts or with cases. I just got to go into that exam and do the best I can.

and God will do the rest.

this is taking a lot of faith.... in God and in myself.

tmrw is thursday!

2011-04-14T01:57:00.002+08:00

okay, i'm actually typing this at 2am thursday, or wednesday "night". err anyway, micro paper was pretty alright, just that i had MANY CARELESS MISTAKES, I WANT TO BANG MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL.

urgh :( very "pek chek"... well, on the bright side, now that that is over, i've only got 1 paper left! whoooppeeeee!!!!!! :D

biz law biz law chiong chiong CHIONG AH!!!!!

what a day...

2011-04-12T21:52:00.001+08:00

cramps. vomiting. diarrhea. doctor. medicine. AS exam.

thank God that AS exam was at 5pm.

i'm feeling pretty indifferent that micro paper is tmrw... i really want it to be over. but more so, biz law is on friday, and i'm so reluctant to do biz law exam :( why can't we learn for the love of learning? biz law is so interesting! everybody agrees... just really difficult.

then again, biz law is the last paper.

we have a love-hate relationship. =.=

2011-04-12T00:45:00.004+08:00

a cat upstairs and a dog downstairs makes an interesting house.

i used to have a rabbit called Bun Bun. my grandfather looked after it till it died of old age. it lived for a really really long time..... at least 8 years? it was pretty much in the whole duration of my childhood and primary school!

Counting: 4 days more

2011-04-11T18:26:00.001+08:00

breathing soe level 5 air again. twc, i bid thee goodbye! :)

AS ONWARD!

milo and me

2011-04-11T00:09:00.003+08:00

say hellooooo to exams. twc is such a *blah* subject. i am not gonna talk about it, because tmrw it's gonna disappear from my life ^^

i love my mum... she's like this really strong woman, wise, logical, hard working. and i really respect her for always sticking to her morals, and for making tough decisions. for example, deciding to quit her job of 22 years to look after my grandma when she's sick. that would mean passive income, and relying on my dad and being uncertain of getting a job then after... i mean, how do you balance all these probabilities? and faced with financial situations, she is like so clear-headed. probably that's the gene that i didn't inherit (muddle-headed me).

and she's sensitive. she just made me a cup of milo because she saw me turn on my laptop downstairs to study twc. yes, i love my mum :)

a wrinkle in my heart.

1 day more...

2011-04-10T00:56:00.000+08:00

not sure how to study for TWC. innovation? yali's question? i got 5/10 for mcq midterms.... :S so if i do not do well enough for finals, i can kiss my A goodbye :(

today was... sigh. i need to keep my emotions in check.

a good thing though: i ate less today. sedentary studying has made me gather fats round my tummy. i'm hungry now though, thinking of the matcha swiss roll in the fridge. but seriously girl.... don't make yourself obliged to clear the fridge.

jack fell down and broke his crown...

2011-04-08T18:52:00.002+08:00

i feel like jack now. bloody headache. after a 2 and a half hour group consultation over biz law, i think my mind is gonna implode or something. :(

i've finally finished studying biz law, AS and to some extent, micro. now it's deciding if i should do my biz law mindmaps now, or start studying for micro (3 bloody exercise worksheets with 2 exam practice papers?!)

you know what we learnt in Micro with regard to Signalling? to differentiate ourselves from low-skilled workers.... or to differentiate SMU students from other uni students? if the cost in education is lower than the increase in future income, it is justifiable. the cost must be low enough for us SMU kids, but too high for other students for this to be effective. so in other words, the cost of studying in SMU is pretty high.

higher cost - in a pecuniary sense - yes. but also in terms of mugging nearly 12 hours a day? some even 23 hours? also the stress of everyone fighting in the bell curve (what a STUPID system). it's only going to get harder, and soon enough, everyone will have to earn a Masters in something, rather than just a degree.

so is the cost of education really increasing? or is it's value decreasing? i vote the latter.

COURNOT! ROH ROH!

2011-04-06T22:23:00.002+08:00

today's a mix of micro and biz law. did about 5 chapters of biz law? okay lah, reading of the notes i once did. thank goodness i heeded my senior's advice to do notes as i read up.... otherwise creating notes now would be disastrous!

really hungry btw. and i believe that i'm turning pear-shaped. sitting down for too long makes one pear-shaped. and considering the lovely aircon i'm always in, i tend to eat a bit more. :) plus lovely teh-bing. hehehehe....

it's only wednesday. tmrw's thursday, and it's almost the END OF THE WEEK. OH NO!

spring!!!

2011-04-05T14:38:00.002+08:00

i want to buy spring fashion! like some staples such as white denim shorts/three quarters, and a thin leather belt, and floral patterns, sun dresses, cute tops! :D i've accumulated quite a bit of winter designs... rotting in my cupboard till i go to perth (SO EXCITED!) so yes. i will clean out my cupboard to fit in more clothes ^^

a bit distracted today.... must. finish. micro.

can i just say i love these to bits?!

2011-04-04T16:11:00.002+08:00

my eyes have found something nice to look at amongst the boredom of econs.

her: http://www.stylebubble.typepad.com/

him: http://stylesalvage.blogspot.com/

designer: http://www.itsnicethat.com/

undeniably cheered up :) now back to work!

curb-ie!

2011-04-03T16:14:00.002+08:00

i want my facebook...... :(

anyway, filming today for candy's MV and i really thank God that i'm in SMU. If i was in candy's position, i'm not sure if i would go to such efforts to do filming. it's their core module, so what to do?

another great thing about SMU is actually LTB. i could pin-point their problems in working as a group (not a team). 3 people forcing their opinions to the group, 1 being extremely domineering, 1 being in positional power but not having personal power, and 2 people just looking at the whole situation and sighing. :(

well, upon reaching home instead of going to the hair dresser's with mum, i thought after having lunch i can study! :) but this kind of failed because i fell asleep on the couch. sunday afternoon naps ftw! but it was such a bloody hot day, so the leather couch trapped heat and it was very uncomfortable to sleep there. but i was too lazy to get up. so i stayed there for 3 hours......... ^^ then it was a nice cold shower! :D

i will..... study a bit before going to church.

My Funeral Song

2011-04-03T01:13:00.002+08:00

This hymn holds much meaning. Please play this during my funeral.

Jesus, Keep Me Near the Cross (UMH 301)

- Fanny J. Crosby, 1869

Jesus, keep me near the cross,
There a precious fountain
Free to all, a healing stream
Flows from Calvary's mountain.

In the cross, in the cross,
Be my glory ever;
Till my raptured soul shall find
Rest beyond the river.

Near the cross, a trembling soul,
Love and mercy found me;
There the bright and morning star
Sheds its beams around me.

In the cross, in the cross,
Be my glory ever;
Till my raptured soul shall find
Rest beyond the river.

Near the cross! O Lamb of God,
Bring its scenes before me;
Help me walk from day to day,
With its shadows o'er me.

In the cross, in the cross,
Be my glory ever;
Till my raptured soul shall find
Rest beyond the river.

Near the cross I'll watch and wait
Hoping, trusting ever,
Till I reach the golden strand,
Just beyond the river.

In the cross, in the cross,
Be my glory ever;
Till my raptured soul shall find
Rest beyond the river.

i've finally heard the library closing song! 9pm. HAHA

2011-04-02T20:49:00.001+08:00

The Catorialist

2011-04-02T03:05:00.001+08:00

http://thecatorialist.blogspot.com/

Starry Nite: British Invasion

2011-04-02T00:09:00.002+08:00

You'll only enjoy the songs when you know them. I wish i knew more songs... though i had fun singing along to Don't Stop Believing, Don't stop me now, We will rock you, Love in the first degree...

They should have an oldies thing :) like retro, good old music. ABBA, Beatles, Bee Gees...

Or maybe Boy Bands and Girl Bands. A1, Backstreet Boys, Nsync, Atomic Kitten, Destiny's child?

hahaha :) i only drank 1.5 cups of beer :( feeling so bloated :( must be the gong-cha and dinner......... sigh :(

what happened?

2011-03-31T23:33:00.002+08:00

i yearn for the time i experienced beautiful worship...

i might be blinding myself from really immersing myself in worship by becoming so bothered by the people around me. being too aware of myself, my appearance, how i look, sound, everything.. too self-conscious. :( sigh...

getting lost in my work, studying, staring into space... i think as my mum said... God, please grant me wisdom so that I may find time for You.

i'm re-looking at the priorities of my life right now.

Nirrimi

2011-03-30T22:21:00.001+08:00

One photographer who's made an impact on me: Nirrimi Hakanson

http://nirrimiphotography.carbonmade.com/

Day 1 of no Facebook. I deleted my tabs that bring me there... It feels weird because I know I can't go onto fb, but the feeling of wanting to go onto facebook when lesson's boring, or when i want to distract myself from work is like 'whoa' because i think i may be more 'addicted' to facebook than i would admit. =\

ahh.... i shall... study..

SYF central judging tmrw. Will be going down to watch with Winston :D

2011-03-30T00:18:00.001+08:00

sigh... feeling a little bit lost... hate it when small decisions end up wasting a lot of time.

Lion King

2011-03-29T23:46:00.003+08:00

Lion King was great :) a fantastic Sunday treat with my one and only :3 Marina Bay Sands theatre is better than Esplanade theatre. The seats are not so deep, and so you are brought much closer to the stage. We bought Cat4 seats, $125 each. They were really good seats! The price discrimination is pretty bad... so many different categories. But as long as you sit on the first floor, not way at the back, it's pretty good a musical experience already :)

I loved the props and of course, the songs :) like Circle of Life, Can You Feel the Love Tonight... very classic songs.

I loved baby Simba! the boy was so cute! and Rafiki was acted out very very well (though victor disagrees). the props, stage set, lighting, music was just great *sigh* :)

Monday was my date with victor :) hehehe, these are pictures from supper at Brotzeit. Awesome beer, awesome german sausages, and the most lovely company :)

Now that the weekend+monday is over, it's time to hit the books. victor's gonna be really quite busy in camp with guard duties and all. so i guess i've got less distractions now. HAHA. i really must study hard and smart this sem. need to get all A's if i want to get into Dean's List.

it's the weekend weekend!

2011-03-27T02:14:00.002+08:00

this weekend feels like a real weekend :)

say YAY to a saturday family dinner and WHOOPEE to Lion King the Musical and MBS on sunday with victor :)

stress, be gone.

a sonata for you

GOD SAVE ME

What a week one

Happy 2012

relationships

the world IS amazing

it'll be us against the world

Direction

finance industry?

stuck in a rut.

The battle is half won!

the first 5pm in a while

sunday morning

come to SMU!

having a good day :)

the bimbo resides

new beginnings

the end of arts camp/vivace

my first summer

2nd Convoc

tough enough?

NDP 2011

car day

mushy hearts

back in the days

Oikos Camp 2011 Together Spellbound

to the barre!

getting to know you

Aussie and Arts Camp

mixed feelings about it all

bye SG, hello Perth!

day 5?

day 5

day 5

is it time to hit the BIG RED panic button?

sinking roots

songs that go into repeat...

prayer movement

Beauty

a crazy week ahead?

zoom zoom!

^*$£(@*)

the 1am curse

STELLAR!

jungle warfare 2... or is it 3?

blue and bruised

MOE Performance @ Orchard Hotel

planning mid term

PUPPIES!

for His love endures forever!

a little less conversation

the real world?

of dance

pictures

passionate

dance photoshoot

Money can't buy you happiness, but it gets close enough!

another great day :)

Victory Parade

music fix

what is time?

I SEE!

Y1T2 results

run run run!

what a strange me

power perfected in weakness

2 Corinthians 12:9 (New International Version, ©2011)

a quiver of arrows

pleasantries

virgin karaoke experience

some results

$88

a new season begins!

just one of those days...

Good Friday

Keep Going...

time machine

that summer feelin'

it takes a lot of courage to do biz law

tmrw is thursday!

^$£(@)